walking contradiction

In this world, we’re always told to pick a side. Have a preference, a set opinion or a signature style. A way of being. However, there are always those who seem unable to choose. Are you one of them?

I’m one of those girls. I struggle with making the smallest decisions. I’m extraordinarily ordinary- but I will never choose just one way of being Alicia. I like things neat and organized, but you’ll find my room a mess in the mornings. I love all things beauty- smokey eyes and dark lips- but I prefer a fresh face some days. I like dressing up for occasions- little black dresses with high heels. Other days I’m wearing jeans and a flannel, beat up sneakers, messy hair, and sweatpants with a superhero t-shirt. I like the sounds of smooth jazz, big band, swing, folk, indie and even the catchy pop songs on the radio. I’ve never had a favourite subject. I love to write, the words flow without me trying. I love the sciences- learning how nature functions so harmoniously is beautiful to me.

I could spend a life up in the rocky mountains, with the clean air and the lakes. I could spend another life by the sea and the sand. I want to travel- I want to run off and see the world, take it in all at once, and then come home to the comfort of my own bed to spend a night in watching tv. I want to run, hike, swim, and explore, and then lie on a beach somewhere and not do a thing. I love the big cities, with the crowds and the noise and the lights. I love my hometown- it’s just the right size and it has a little bit of everything. I want to see the sunrise, and the sunset. I like walking in the snow when it’s bitterly cold, but I’ll run outside to stand in the rain.

People want will want you to choose; to be neat or messy, mature or carefree. The things is, there’s just too much out there for me to enjoy. I will never choose- between coke and pepsi, coffee or tea, early bird or night owl, vintage or modern, spring, summer, winter or fall. I will always like chocolate and vanilla, cats and dogs, books and movies. The world is full. It is so incredibly full with so many wonderful things, so I will never choose just one every single time. There is peaceful, and there is wild- I am both, Sometimes being yourself means being a walking contradiction. People will want to pin you, they’ll want to put you in a category. Let them try if that pleases them- the truth is we all like a little bit of everything. Some of us are more confused than others, and that is okay. If anything those people enjoy more of life than anybody else- that is something very special. So yes, I try on way too many outfits in the fitting room, and I take ages to order something off the menu. That’s just fine with me.

-Alicia

Live the full life of the mind, exhilarated by new ideas, intoxicated by the romance of the unusual.

-Ernest Hemingway

This post was inspired theconfusedsoulsree. She has a great blog, check her out!

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  1. Such a great write-up 😍
    I loved what you wrote, this definitely explains what we have inside our mind. It feels so good to meet a fellow blogger with similar mindset 😍💝 Thank you so much for the shout out, I am honoured 💝 I am following your blog and hope to stay in touch 😊😊😊😍

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